Partner left after 9 yrs - reconciled now married!

[AliSuddenly]

Hello girls! (and DR )

Thanks for all your kind thoughts...wow its been a while hey since I've been here!

Little Daisy Anja was born via the sunroof, 20th June at 7.19 am.

Yep Mish and who else was asking.. an 80 hour labour!! 3 days and nights in labour at home from Thursday with contractions continously and then, when I couldnt take it anymore.. we transferred to hospital early hours of Saturay morning. I just wanted some gas and air or something, but they said I had to be induced by drip and so they artificially broke my waters at 6am. The drip arrived midday and I was doing ok with just my yoga breathing and moves still, until they turned the dial up on the drip and then I felt like I was being murdered !! Well, I was on the drip for 22 hours and had to have an epidural for 18 of that and after all of that.. the baby still wasnt coming.

So, after 80 hours, I had to have a cesearean Monday morning. I didnt mind though, it was the easiest bit! I recovered well from it too, I stopped taking pain killers on the 4th day and on the 6th I went on a 2 mile walk down to the sea and back up a 1 in 3 hill ! (I may have over done that though!!). My scar healed fine and really, I was very lucky to get over it so fast.

Dawn..shes a Gemini with an Aquarius moon...and she does have some negative stuff in her chart (Saturn in 4th house, moon in 8th house of death and Sun in the 12th)..which point to her losing me or H early in life through separation of some kind, divorce, illness or death! It really is such bad omens that after I saw it (sneaked a peek at her chart online when she was 3 ays old)..that it made me depressed and cry for the first 3 weeks of her life , well that and hormones.

So breastfeeding was REALLY REALLY hard.. but I am still managing to do it after 7 weeks . She is very good, except she wont go down asleep unless we hold her first until shes fast asleep.. (any tips appreciated!) and she doesnt sleep in the evenings (like now!) and is awake and fretful until about 10.30 pm each night. She does sleep quite well at night though and regularly sleeps 3 1/2 hours at a stretch and then another 2 and 1 oe 2 after that.. which doesnt sound much, but I feel ok on it !

Its amazing to have a baby with H, after all these years and all that happened.. and he has been incredible, a rock and so loving and kind to us both. He is a natural with her too and had 3 weeks off work when he was up with me at every feed helping me and helping to settle her to sleep. Since being back at work he still helps every night if I need it, or takes her off me and lets me go back to sleep, even if its 3, 4 , 5 am and he has to get up for work at 7. He says why wouldnt he, its his baby too and he doesnt want me to be too tired to look after her in the day. He is also doing pretty much all the laundry and housework and most of the cooking becuase I just dont get time as breastfeeding is so time consuming. He is amazing and I feel very blessed and lucky to be with him doing this.

But then I always knew he would be, which is why I was 100% committed to him when we were apart and determined to reconcile hey.

I will catch up with you all and looking forward to reading how you are all doing.. if you are all still posting. Its been awhile hey

Al xxx