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[Lonely in SLC]

Just journaling.

I had a great weekend with the kids. We couldn't do much because S8 was sick, but it was great just having them around, playing games & watching movies.

Yesterday my wife asked me to help her buy a new TV for her new apartment. She moves in this week, we have to be out of the house by next Sunday.

We had a good time just the two of us. A friend had the kids. We just enjoyed eachothers company as friends. It was soooo hard not to bring up R talk. But I did it. Yeah!

I just don't get it. It appears that she wants to be around me, but NO R talk. Oh how I want to be able to take her into my arms like before. She is my angel, but at this moment to far to reach and touch.

Afterwards we went to our favorite Mexican restaurant to have dinner with the kids. My S8 started to say he doesn't understand the divorce. My STBXW had stated that the divorce was necessary because we were fighting a lot. But S8 said that we have not fought for a couple of months now, so why the divorce. At this S10 & D5 started asking her questions. She was getting upset and I could tell she thought that I had started this somehow. I told the kids we are divorced for now, and let's just enjoy dinner as a family, and that it would be a could idea to change the subject.

To my embarssment, D5 let out the largest burp in the restaurant. Both boys started laughing, and thus we were on to a new topic, me trying to tell the three laughing kids that this behaviour was not appropiate in a restaurant. I had to then chastise my STBXW because she was not helping with her laughter.

I will be interacting with the STBXW a lot this week helping move our stuff out of the house. My goal is not to initiate any R talk, and to be cheerful the entire time. Wish me luck. It can be so hard to do...