Wow...thanks for your input. I can say that I have been over it in my head a million times and there were things in our M that were not that great but nothing that I would concider enough to leave over. We really had it very good in a lot of respects.....
I did come to a conclusion last week and that was the source of my pain was not how or why she left me, which is what I was focusing on....or could stop thinking about.......but the fact that I am totally in love with her. I realized that if I didn't love her there would be no pain. Still however, more than two months have now passed and still no contact what so ever. So there is not much I can do other than let her go. The shock is wearing off.....but I would do anything for 5 minutes on the phone with her now.....just to get some answers.
Still camping, running and going to the gym..... Now I am taking care of me...she is gone..I may never know what happened and I know I can't let it hurt me forever....Boy that first month was so hard though..... How am I doing ? I think considering what just happened I am doing pretty good now....still hurts like crazy but I have to remain strong. She is now a person that is capable of hurting other people....that is what she has become and she will have to live with it not me.
The even weirder thing now is that its been almost 2months since I responded to the D petition and I have not heard back from her attorney. What's up with that....?
