Just hugged her, gave her a kiss and sent her on her way to her first date with a girl.
Time to find out how far she will go, time to find out how I will react.
Time for her to see if she wants to go through with it, if this is just an urge, curiosity, if she is straight,bi, lesbian or just curious.
Time for the games to stop and to face the consequences of our actions.
How do I feel?
I'm not angry, I'm not sad. That passed months ago. I don't even feel sorry for myself. This is not my fault. I did my best.
Then what do I feel?
Nervous: after tonight my life will never be the same. This could be the beginning of the end for us. It could also be the beginning of a new union where monogamy is the focus, or it could be the beginning of an open relationship where we both want each other to enjoy and held together by love.
No matter what the old marriage is over, and for that I am happy.
Happy: like I said I feel closure coming no matter what it may look like. I'd like to take this moment to thank all of the people in this board who have gone through this with me. You guys know who you are. Your daily support( and 2x4's). Made me realize I will be ok no matter the outcome.
Honestly I thought by now I'd be falling apart knowing my W is with an OW. Really though I'm more excited to finally get a chance to see how she will react. To finally know that a new beginning is near.
All possible outcomes have heartache involved, that I acknowledge. Yet I also stand to gain, the freedom of knowing I am free to find someone else, the relief of knowing that my W chose me after all, or the freedom of knowing we can both expand our sex lives in different ways.
I know many on this board feel my M will go one way or another, and that's ok! At this point after all the heart ache and uncertainty it all sounds great.
