I bold printed your words. You said his having an affair, which has been going on for years now, is worse than his death...so, even after all this time,
I made the reasonable inference that you prefer being a widow to being a divorcee--
and the difference is?
How are you reacting differently than if he had died?
If he died, you'd have moved on??
....but he hasn't died and you stay in the same emotional place, or a worse one
and why is that?
He has NOT said or acted as if he wants a reconciliation.
For reasons I assume are financial or medical, neither of them has filed for divorce from their original spouses
but they live openly together.
You find this immoral to the point of calling it an "evil pagan lifestyle".
--your words, not mine. Back to the REAL questions you keep avoiding...
How would marriage to you today, be better than before?
Why should your h come home, in his eyes? THIS IS KEY...
How have YOU changed since all this?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
