i dont think beards are evil, i just dont like long biker beards much, but never criticized him about his beard, i liked it. I never said i hated tatoos its just that the ones he got look demonic. I know im far from perfect i just dont think people realize that fooling around with demonic stuff can lead down the wrong road. Answer to your questions, If the m is over i have to accept it and find happiness with my own life and meet new friends. I want h back because there were a lot of things i loved about him too. We were very happy for 25 yrs til the thereapist that was going thru her own d gave us very bad advice to separate over minor things to make m better. Thats the saddest part of this whole situation. that she destroyed a great m. I did not think h was evil before the affair it was after that that i got obsessed with religion it was the only thing i could count on in my life to keep my sanity and to prevent being hurt again. unless you have experienced betrayal you do not know the pain of it. Its worse than having your spouse die..
