Do I stay or do I go?

[anyhope]

I wish these posts appeared right away, so I could get some insight to the situation. So yesterday went pretty good, and I woke up feeling pretty good about myself. Got a bunch of resumes ready and went to apply for the jobs I came across on Sunday. In the car was a receipt on the floor I loped at it and was really sad to see that he took her to a nice lake we went to just a few weeks back while I was under the impression that he's back and trying to make things right. It hurt a lot. Then as if that's not enough I got a coffe and decided to check out Facebook on my phone while drinking it (this was all before I went to drop any resumes off) so what I see on there is that they're now friends on Facebook. Again a stab in the back. I was able to look through all her pictures and came to realize that she is not prettier than me. (thank God) in fact she looks a bit trashy which is not suprizing given what her profession is. So I looked over 124 pictures of them having fun Saturday. I felt like crying. Then I got mad when she was driving our car on 2 of them.. It's my car, my husband and my life shes stealing from me. I tried to get my thoughts together and be strong. I went to drop off the resumes and felt a bit better by the time I got home. I know I'm not to bring up R in conversations, but after putting all that in my face and given that we're still in the same house I asked what the situation was with her. Is she moving in next week as they seem to get along perfectly. He said I might not believe him plus it doesn't matter because our realtionship is over, but they are just friends and went to the lake together. They don't have anything going on between them. I said it was fine. I no longer care what he does I just don't want to come home one day to her sitting in our living room or moving in or something. He said it will not happen. Then I remembered that on some photos under a waterfall she is not wearing her top. So I couldn't resist, I had to ask why she was topless on the pictures if they're just friends. He said it's not like he hasn't seen her topless before so why should she be shy about it. Well she sure isn't and I sure still don't believe a word he says. Things are so hard. Oh.. Not to mention pictures of them in a restaurant after the lake.. Made me sick, especially because he asked me out to a restaurant yesterday and I had almost the same food she had the night before with him. [censored] to know so many details, but her facebook is not restricted and she looks to be the type to take pictures of everything. Don't know how I'll go through this. I wish I could save this marriage as I know this is him MLC self not his real self, but It seems impossible. Even if he lives his live with her and decides to come back to me in 6 months let's say.. How could I put all this behind me?