Feeling alone and frustrated with a 180.

[Psych77]

Well, W has been away with the kids for 4 days (today is day 4), and I have actually been getting a lot done around the house. Taking care of some jobs I knew I needed to do, and some that W has lately been asking me to do. I have found it is a lot easier to get things done without the interruptions. If I get started on a project, then someone asks me to do *just one little thing for them* it can take me up to 5 minutes to get myself refocused on what I was doing. It shouldn't be that way, but it is.

So, some of the stuff I did because I know W wants it, but overall I was working all weekend because I have been kind of sick of living in a house that is a mess with all kinds of things needing repair. Hopefully, this means (the fact that I have internal motivation to do things) that I am working the kind of change that will last. Didn't think much about DBing over the weekend, I was so busy. Have to get back into the book (DR) before W comes back tomorrow night, so I can get refocused on changes I am trying to make. I got some good stuff done over the weekend, but I need to be aware of my behavior, so I won't play into any of our typical conflicts when she gets back.

Kinda lonely being at home without family, but it has been kind of easy, too, with no challenges. Maybe it has been good for me - time to re-charge my batteries.

Well, not much else to say today. Will see tomorrow evening how things work out when W is back in the picture. Break a leg!