lmh, i think you are not crazy... i think you are just all over the place with your emotions... and that's pretty normal...
in the beginning, i mostly stayed sad, because I didn't want to get mad... but finally, I dealt with my anger, too...
I understand that you love your H, but understand that whatever is going on in his life and your M... it does not justify an A...
From what I've understand (I've been posting it around here the last little while) is that I have a better appreciation for why...
It comes from the saying the WAS uses... "I don't feel married"... probably comes from their detachment... their choice to be "out of" love... their choice to act single... and because it contradicts the reality that they ARE M... they might feel some guilt...
Anyhow, all I'm trying to say here is, only you know if an A is a deal breaker for you. M's DO survive infidelity and all the horrible things associated with them...
You are still here, so we'll presume that at least for the time being... you're still willing to keep trying...
