My feelings are changing...sitch isn't

[tadpole1025]

Thanks Antonia. I do need the 2x4s so bring them on. I guess it is just so hard because a lot of the stuff preached on this board seems counter-productive.

Didn't we all talk about facebook weeks ago? You said you'd think about defriending/blocking. Have you done that? It's like you're saying "here I am, hurt me some more" by being there, by answering all these texts, by seeing her on facebook, and whatever else.

We did. I haven't done it yet simply because of something that MHL said that keeps sticking in my mind. He said that it could "send the wrong message."

She sent a couple of more daggers this evening in the form of texts. She was simply asking if she could have certain things back. It shouldn't hurt me but it does. It seems like everything that she takes is one step closer to finality.

She then sent another text asking if I would make copies of all of our home videos. Why? If she was that miserable and unhappy, why in the world would she want videos of us? Seems that she would want to foget that part of her life.

I find myself looking at other couples and becoming a little jealous. I also find myself wondering which one of them is going to snap and turn the other's world upside down.

I also find it odd that she would want to be friends with me because I am such a horrible person in her eyes....

I guess I just need to quit wondering at all.....

Tad