My feelings are changing...sitch isn't

[tadpole1025]

Good advice as always everyone. Thank you. It is funny. I have good days, average days and really bad days. The really bad days are when I see or hear from her. She's already contacted me today about something that she wants back because it belonged to her parents.

W: Will you bring me the Monopoly game? It was my parents.

M: Sure. I'll have it ready on Sunday.

W: Thank you. We don't have very many games over here. We are playing Crazy Eights right now.

M: Well, you can take more if you want.

No response.

There were a lot of questions asked of me above and I will try to answer them.

First, AJ I will be working in the Order Processing department for a MAJOR online retailer. I'm excited for it to begin.

On to the the more difficult stuff:

Misery loves company and it's evident she's pulling you right into her pitty pot with her.

You are absolutely right Snodderly. For some reason, I keep getting sucked right back in. It is just hard hearing the comments coming from a woman that used to love me so much. Letting them roll off my back is sometimes easier said than done.

What led your W to say this again to you? Did she just randomly blurt that out?

Yeah Seeking. She pretty much did.

Tad, isn't there somewhere else you could be when she drops your son off? Even if it's in another part of the house, just don't be around when she comes by. Be busy with your life.

Well to be honest, I want to be at the house because she always insists on coming in. Funny though that I'm not allowed in hers. Months ago she made the comment that she'll never step another foot in here. Now, she insists on coming in. I've tried being in another part of the house numerous times, but you know what? She always seeks me out.

Do you remember the man you were when you first met her? Were you needy and clingy back then? Did she have all the power in the relationship? Did you act like a whipped pup when you saw her waiting for her to pay attention to you?

Well, I'm having a hard time with this because to be honest, when we met I wasn't a man. I was just 16. So damn young. I do know that I was always trying to impress her or make her laugh.

Have you been able to pull PMA off when you see her? Can she see signs of you moving forward without her? (notice that I didn't say moving on)

I've been trying. As for her seeing signs, I can't answer that.

What about being dressed up and smelling great when you drop your S off to her? Looking like you've obviously got plans? Being upbeat and happy about your life, with a friendly wave as you can't wait to get going?

I've been doing this a lot more. Not sure if she has noticed or even wants to notice.

I know a divorce is just a piece of paper, but I sure hope it doesn't come to that. It is sad that some of them feel they need the divorce.

Our mediation is Wednesday. Ug.

I can look back and remember all of the things that she has said and done over the last several months and realize that yeah, she really is just done.

Then....

I can look back and remember all of the things that she has said and done over the last several months and realize that yeah, she really is just crazy.

MLC or no MLC?

Sometimes I just don'tknow.

Tad