thanks for responding Kim, I wish you the best in 2004! Well, I was the one three days before our court date, on my knees crying and babbling like a complete idiot! No that I look back on it, I was have really been a sight! He told me I started the divorce so he was going to go through with it. Whenever I try and discuss my feelings he gets very angry and starts yelling and then starts saying that maybe she should only speak regarding daughter. So I have been letting my actions speak for me. Like I still write in cards, love, anita, or I'm still thinking about you etc...its good and bad for daughter though, shes 12 and very confussed by all this--like me! I am over there everyday and every weekend so all seem to be together and then, like when the tenant sends dad a card and she finds it, she gets upset. That's why I would like to know how he feels so I can give some insight to daughter, if we are just going to remain friends, fine, but then I will not make such a consciencous effort to be available all the time. Drunk--thats a good one. He doesn't really drink and when he does, after three beers he goes right to sleep! I wish he called News Years Eve around 9 p.m. I was steam cleaning the carpets and having pina colada's and was feeling real good! I would have told him how much I loved him and that I wanted him really bad, well, okay, I'm glad he didn't call. News Years day he called to wish me happy new year if I don't see you. I was like, well I hope I see you--I'm coming over to pick up daughter! he was like okay and when I got there I told him that I was invited to a wedding on the 10th. He asked me if I was going to go. I was surprised he asked me. I told him that I haven't been to a wedding in ten years (truth) and that it would be fun--all the girls from work were invited. Girl from works daughter is getting married. I will try to read your postings today. thanks again!
