Thanks, kaffe and dbmod. I am feeling very weepy and tired right now, it hurts to even feel a little of the desolation I felt when I discovered OW #1. I know that I'll pick myself up and dust myself off but in the mean time, I'm contemplating a pint of haagen das and some white whine to get me through the evening...and maybe some female empowerment movies -- like Enough with Jennifer Lopez or The Women of Brewster Place or Thelma & Louise. I mean, thank God for Netflix, seriously.

It's not an easy choice at all, even when the actions the WAS takes seem to make things a no-brainer for you.

What do I want for my life? I want peace. I want contentment. I do not want to be in the marriage I was in where everything was my fault and there was nothing that I could do right. I don't ever want to feel unaccepted and unacceptable when I'm giving 100% of myself. I want love that is not contingent on a mood or a whim -- and I don't just mean romantic love but all forms of love. I love my career. I am financially independent. I have opportunities to be creative and fulfill lifelong dreams. I have a good, solid core group of loved ones who support, encourage and hang with me.

My DH was such a part of that, my King, and I definitely treated him that way. But Elvis has left the building...

Me: 33, H: 32
M: 12 years T: 13 years
No kids
D-Day: 7/2009
Separated: 10/12/10
Future Unknown
GITS

"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele