Totally confused

[alone]

Husband of 30 years left 3 months ago, living in a hotel. We have been going to marriage counseling going on dates having a good time together. Last week found out that there is another woman. She lives over 1000 miles from us. He says that they are friends but has started to have deeper feelings. Says he is confused and loves me and wants us to be happy together but can't say that he can stop talking to her. He is Starting independent counseling which our marriage counselor suggested even before this because he has been depressed and confused. (One minute wants to come home next does not) Now I am totally confused in what I want. I love him and wanted to work on marriage and then the next minute I feel like just walking away. Why would I want someone that does not care what he is doing to me. I can't sleep and am terribly confused by my own feelings. I had started independent counseling and had 1 session my next is this coming Friday. Does anybody have any advice on just how to at least have this emotional roller coaster slow down a little? I know that it will not stop at this time.