Rough day. Haven't responded to any of the texts yet but have received several this morning about missing us. Wishing things had been different. How she listened to our song a lot last night. How it was a rough night. I keep fighting the urge to text her back and say yeah well you threw us away because you couldn't keep your legs closed and I give up on trying to fix us. I won't I just feel like saying something to try to hurt her the way she's hurt me.
I just find myself missing her horribly today. My mind keeps jumping back to how we used to be and how we are now. That marriage is gone though. I know that until she gets the help she needs this is a pattern that is going to keep repeating itself. I just feel so much sadness right now.
