I'm quite sure, Tad, that snodderly's advice to live your life as if she isn't going to return sounds...harsh to your ears right now.
But look back and see that you have been getting the same, consistent advice from many on this board/thread for a long time. There's a reason for that, Tad. It's what people have been pointing out to you that you have not yet seen. The sooner you detach, the better. If you do not you delay things longer. If you do, things may take a long time but they continue as needed.
Focus on you, Tad. It's time.

I forgot to ask: what is the job you will be doing?

AJ


"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK
Put the glass down...
"Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."