Well, just like we are still married. Spent all day with them x-mas eve then for supper he went to parents house and I went home. X-mas day I met them for church and brought a quiche and d's present. She opened her presents. Ex gave me or should I say d gave me a beautiful picture of d on the ledge overlooking this beautiful lake from their summer trip to Poland. I also got a phot album full with pictures from Poland and even one photo of ex and her. It was really nice. I gave him a card with a gift card in it. He was a little angry that I did that, saying I didn't have to do that but I added that it was also from d (not!) Fri has was gone all day. OM called because he got me and d tickets to the ballet and he wanted me to come pick them up and sorry to say I did. Nothing happened, brought back some feelings, lust I think. It's so hard being with ex and not getting any physcial attention. Well anyway Sat morning, called ex and asked him if he wanted to go with me and d to Barnes and Noble, said yes and we ended up spending the entire day shopping. We got Chinese for supper, then his brother called and he talked on the phone forever, I felt weird sitting with my daughter. She told me she had somehting to show me and took me to the dad's bedroom and in a pile of magazines hidden was a xmas card from our tenant (the one that he had asked out before) and she just signed her name and worte a note thanking him for being a great landlord. I got upset because it was hidden and then my mind goes crazy. Then daughter showed me that he still had the envlope from the card on the counter, again hidden under some misc. papers. I am collecting used stamps for my school and I remember him going in that pile giving me used stamps, except from the tenents card, the stamp was still there. But talked myself out of flipping out, he spent the day with me and that was good. Next day he asked me and d to the movies. Went to the movies then back to his place and we ordered pizza I wanted to pay, but he gave me half. Stayed almost all night then bed time comes and I go home. Don't know what to think, I don't know how long I can keep this up. A friend at work wants to fix me up with someone and I feel like saying yes just so that I can go out--just guy and girl no daughter, but then I think no, I need to be home for my ex-h.
