We cannot ever know how other's think, what life is like in their minds. I have no doubt that you have tried the best way you knew how to love her and be there for her and do what was best for her and your family. That is all any of us can ever, ever do. There is no crystal ball to tell us these things will happen or why or what could have prevented it. You are not to blame. You did all you could do. Often... with people who are suicidal... it's just a matter of time and no one can stop it. Even if you'd been there, even if you'd caught her in an attempt... it would only have been a delay. All you could do... all any of us can do is love our spouses and those dearest to us. Please do not feel that this is your fault. I know this just happened, but you must find a way to let go of any feelings of guilt. I hope you will find a way to fill your heart with love for your W, your family, and yourself and that it will help you find the strength and courage you need to move through this for yourself and your family. Everyone here is sending you loving thoughts and I hope we can manage to be of some aid to you in this time of loss.
