I had a very similar dream. Yes it is very painful... I think it's your subconscious self trying to provide relief, or coming to terms with your grief... Kind of how you hear about a dead person who you were very close to coming to you in a dream...IMHO

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Bomb drop 02/22/2011
2nd written bomb (Letter bomb) 05/31/2011
Affair (A bomb) revealed 07/03/2011