Her email was not deleted so she got my ping and knows I know about the email.
I guess what I'm pondering now is what has actually happened as far as an affair. and do I want to know.
Was there a PA? For the most part there really hasn't been opportunity. We didn't spend any time apart until recently. The last 1 1/2 months we've been separated. There was two weeks in Jan I was out of town. Even now while separated she is generally here early and leaves late. Still not much opportunity for a PA.
There is of course plenty of opportunity for a cyber affair.
Yesterday I was feeling better. I was changing her car battery for her and asked if she's like to go with me to the beach Sat. She said no but Sunday would be OK. I already suspected she was doing something with her brother Sat. Was curious to see the response already having plans.
So tomorrow we are driving the convertible to the beach. I suppose my best bet is to be happy and have fun. No pursuing.
Do I know what I want? Well yeah, I want a happy marriage with unbridled intimacy (words that would have scared me to no end a few years back). Who with? I don't know. If it turns out there was a PA I'm not sure I could handle it well. I don't know how you guys do. And I really don't want to find out for myself.
