Well you are right on target punkin, it was a test. Last night we were hanging out with some neighbors and his upcoming trip came up. It is all I hear about daily, which makes me nervous a bit. One of the wives said "aren't you going, Chances?" and I said no. She asked if spouses can go and I said yes. It was dropped.
Later when we got home, it was brought up. He had recently said that once things settle down he would like to go somewhere, just us but finances are tight now. So I mentioned, that could be an inexpensive way to get away on the front of his trip (I know that I was wrong in saying that and I regret it terribly. He blew up and said he knew the "new Chances" was an illusion and didn't want to get grilled by the "old Chances" H said "I am so dissapointed, I have been trying to restore this relationship" ( I tend to disagree with that but didn't say anything. He was screaming and in my face, left and came back to do it again. I did a 180 and went to my moms, I have never left before but didn't feel safe (he is not physical just intimidating)
He proceeded to list out all that I have going for me and he said hisl life is groundhog day. He has been doing so much lately alone, with the guys, day trips, overnighters, but he still sees it ass I have more or do more and feels slighted.
I came home this morning and everyone is still sleepinig. I wanted to be here for S17 to see him off to a concert. S14 is away with friends for the week.
Not sure what to expect once he wakes. Not sure what I will do or say, if anything. I hope someone has some advice this morning. I am devastated.
