As a Man, the number one thing you need to do to be a successful man is be true to yourself. YOU do not answer to anyone outside of yourself or God if you believe. You as a man need to be indifferent towards anything other than your self-worth. No person, including the Hottest female on the planet, controls your life. You are you period. The question is how do you become the best you possible? Well, one you can't base it off women. Women are hardwired to test. EVERYTHING is a test. If you are not true to yourself, then there is NO WAY you will be able to answer your woman's tests.
You need to constantly evaluate your happiness and figure out what YOU want and you need to lead yourself to be the happy you.
If you continually worry and change to suit someone other than yourself, then you forget yourself.
As far as fear, you need to look at that in the eye everyday and become someone different than what you were the day before.
No woman on this planet will want to stay with a man unless he leads his life with a purpose and strength that shows he is worth being with.
Aeo, you have done a lot of work, but instead of focusing so much on the outcome. Detach from it. KNOW you will be okay without her because of your journey. IF she wants to be with you, she will do everything possible to be and if she doesn't others will.
You are owning up to your part, but she has to make a choice too. Hang in there bud. Stay strong.
