OnMyWay: to the next phase.

[OnMyWay]

Quick update after last night's post. I'm still not sure where she's on all this (R or D or neither), but I got home last night and expected her to jump up and run out the door, like usual. Since I have been on my "pull-back," I haven't tried to engage her at all, letting her initiate all conversation and keeping my side of the conversation to a minimum.

Last night when I got home, I came in an announced my arrival and went about my routine, like I always do. I honestly had business to tend, so I didn't really notice her hovering. She made a grand announcement that she was leaving. I wasn't really "present" with her, so I brushed it off with a "see you later" and returned to my business.

Soon after, there was a brief text volley.

W: U ok?

Me: Yeah, sure. Why? Does it seem like somethings wrong?

W: Just checking..

W: Sorry.... u just looked like u needed a hug...

Me: Oh. Hugs r always good. U gonna come back for that?

W: Or maybe I was the one that needed to hug us so I could feel I was comforting u.... weird...

(45 minutes later)
W: Sleep well...

Me: Trying to, but someone keeps texting me. LOL.

W: Sorry... :-(

One other thing I felt was odd was this: D9 & her BFF have been pushing BFF's mom & I towards each other. The mom actually came over on Sunday; she is obviously interested. What was odd is that my WAW friended her up on Facebook today. For some reason, this is funny to me.

Then, this evening, WAW shows up to watch D9. I grab my stuff and prepare to run out the door for work. She calls to me "Come here." I come over as she dives in for her hug. And it's a doozie. WTF?

I don't stop her and we embrace for a long time. It was a nice hug, comfortable and familiar. I ask if she is ok, to which she blows off my question with a quick "sure." When she is done, I step back, give her a quick smile, grab my stuff and head out on my way to my life.

Before everyone gives me a "Wow, OMW, that's some progress," know that I do not see this as any kind of answer to my questions of where she is or what moves she is making. I choose to operate on a status quo basis here, as this could just be some way of her trying to entice me back into a position of pursuit or eliminate what she may perceive as a threat from other women. It has also been a couple of months since we ML, so this could be a sneaky way for her to initiate a booty call, which I know will just make her run for cover after. So, no.

This is all interesting, but again, it's all just supposition and therefore irrelevant. it shan't have any bearing on my position as of late. If she decides to pursue me, fine. She can compete with the other women who are hovering around. But, I can't let it crack my stoicism and undermined my purpose here, which is to stay MY course and never travel this way ever again.