Wife no longer in love with me

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I can talk to her and be friendly now without getting too emotional. But it is hard, it is bloody hard. Chuck has given me the advice to do this, but I can't imagine how I will go when I see her.
I just keep wondering if she is out picking up and meeting guys given her new single life. She has never been like that, but its been a while now so it tears me up inside wondering.
Definitely not calling 'just to chat', I will leave it to her to initiate any contact.