Feels Like I'm In Two-a-Days

[MadeToSucceed]

She added me back to bbm and this is how that went.

Me: Did you receive my texts?

W: I did. Thanks

Me: Thanks?

W: For responding

Me: I wish I was awake to receive your attempts to reach me. I just was trying to get a good night's rest. These next 36 hours or so are going to be pretty long for me so I just wanted the energy.

W: Its ok.. I understand. Maybe its just best. I've never wanted you to feel used. Or led on in any kind of way. I feel like I haven't been fair to you or myself in this whole situation. I basically can't have my cake and eat it to, because that puts your feelings and emotions at expense. And that's not fair. As bad as I want to utilize the friends aspect of us. Its becoming very apparent that its not really possible at this point and seems to become a problem and or source of emotional confusion and turmoil instead. I don't want to make anything harder than it already has to be. So that being said.. As hard as it is, I thinks its just best. You don't have to respond.. So don't feel obligated at all. Its ok.

Me: Its not that I don't want to respond. I was trying to not interrupt you.

W: No its ok. Didn't take it any kind of way

That's where things sit right now. I haven't heard anything else from her nor have I tried to say anything else to her. I'm taking a break from packing up right now and it's gotten really tough for me all the sudden. Very emotional for me. I really don't know how to respond. I feel like "it" for her is saying we shouldn't talk anymore but yet she wants ME to be the one to say it so she doesn't have to feel bad about it. I'm not really sure.