I've been a mess all day. Guess it hit me. She stayed around late and cooked dinner. She did lots of business things I've wanted her to do in the past but she never does. She's trying to be perfect. I was just cold. Normally she handles the finances. Even for one of the businesses that is all me. A client came today to drop off a check and I had instructed the client to make sure it got to me. As instructed the client walked past her to deliver it to me. That in itself was a big 180. I had planned on driving it to town to deposit myself and see if I can take her name off the account without having to close the account. She brought it up several times about depositing it. Finally she said she could deposit it and not touch the account. After awhile I agreed to this. That is a big change for us and I'm sure it had an impact. Although I should still keep my ire up and go and remove her from the account.
On the way out she gave me a kiss on the cheek. Also a change as I'm generally the pursuer and I'm now unresponsive to her affections.
I'm not sure if I should be acting as if right now. It seems to me that acting as if would play right into her little fantasy. She really believes she can have her cake and eat it too. She has said several times she wants us to be what we are now. Business partners, best friends, live next door to each other. Maybe she might realize that that is just fantasy. Especially if I am correct in my assumption of some kind of affair whether it be an EA or PA.
If I can't trust her as my wife how would I ever trust her as a partner. (not a question)
