Loving, Listening, and Letting Go..

[aeolianchaos]

I'm not sure what to make of a lot of this.. for myself.. for her.

It seems like she is at least framing this to me (if not herself) as something she needs to do because of what she did.

I am prepared to cut off contact w/ her once D is finalized. It isn't an idle threat. I know what I am like around ex-GF's so I don't think it is in my interests to be around an ex-W. I am better off without in that case.. there is nothing tying me to her (like kids..) and I'm grateful for that. The fact is, I do love her and I do want to have a M with her. But, if I can't have that then I really don't want to be around her - too painful, and I think I would just get 'stuck.'