I can take that punch!

[Redo]

Journaling.....

I think i jinxed myself when i just said in above post that i am pumped about life.

Went with friends for lunch. Usually my topic comes about as they know my sitch.

2 weeks ago when i visited daughter and we were in the kitchen, somehow W and I started talking about daughter and next thing we know the R talk came up a bit. During that time i asked wife "Hey whats going on with the divorce? My L did not hear anything back from yours". To which wife said "You know that i lost my job and am not working. I am just lining up my ducks..." At that time daughter caught my attention and i did not ask W to explain what lininup-ducks meant?

As i have been learning to not dwell too much on these things, i promptly forgot all about it. Today during lunch, i just mentioned that my pals. Next thing, all kinds of conspiracy stuff are being put forth. Like "Oh man, your W might be planning on taking you to court", "Oh you should just pursue this and get it over", blah, blah. I like these guys and we are close. I do appreciate some of their advice. But today, what they said just spooked me out. Now i cannot help but try to figure out what W really meant by 'lining up ducks' stuff.

I dunno. Maybe i should just go back to forgetting it and just let things fall into place before wildly speculating.