mgm, don't beat yourself up too much. You're still early in the process. Yes, you probably shouldn't have reached out to her like that. However, learn from what you did and don't repeat it. You also shouldn't have asked her if she talked to anyone else - there's really not much point in it at this time.
I believe CS mentioned something about her actions telling you she doesn't want to be married to you right NOW. Keep this in mind. She needs to miss you.
