Do I stay or do I go?

[anyhope]

Today was the first tuesday in over a month he hasn't gone out drinking (its wing night). We still didn't speak, except about some bills. I kept busy with work, I sang a bit (it's my hobby) and took my dog for a nice walk. I have also started a journal. I've read a bunch of posts from other ppl. Those really help a lot to cope with things. I also feel better having no contact, this way non of us is trying to pretend or lie. We can both focus on our lives. I still pay attention to what he does, but I try my best to occupy myself and look somewhat put together, I'm letting him be... With her if it has to be... Not like I have a choice.