Went to my first Al Anon meeting tonight and really liked it. Met some great people and the topic was so in line with DB. It was lots of talk of detachment and boundaries. I was already working on that today and needed the reinforcement. I can't wait to go to another meeting on Thursday.
When I got home H was just getting in as well. I was reading a book and he sat down and was curious about where I was because I hadn't responded to his texts. I said I was at a Step Class. Not a total lie and he knows I've been going to the gym. I was feeling like I had to give an answer and that was the best I could do. Was that bad?
He was on the computer and I did a 180 and went to the bedroom to read some more. I typically would have sat in the living room waiting for him to join me. He just came back to the bedroom and extended his hand and said "hi my name is H, nice to meet you". I simply laughed and he said "I've missed you tonight"
Times like this are very confusing for me. I am glad I have the chance to get on here now, while he is watching tv. I am trying very hard not to fall back into old bad habits. What is the old saying? The definition of insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly and expecting different results. It is time for me. Just not looking too far into the future and worrying about things I cannot control.
I'll be happy to hear any insight to that exchange. I know that each of us has our own path but I feel so new and really do appreciate feedback.
I've got this place which feels safe, and my DB and Codependent books safely hidden for alone time reading. I am very thankful for that.
Tomorrow night I will go to church and Thursday is another Al Anon. I'm really looking forward to all of it.
