Thank you everyone for the support. Unfortunately things still did not go my way. The mediator recommended that we have a custody evaluation done and our children remain with my X in the meantime.

I'm processing everything that happened today to determine my next move. I'm not sure anything will change after the evaluation given how much effort I put into this hearing. It is deflating.

I did get to talk to my X after the hearing as I had to give her some of our children's belongings. She is beautiful and I admit it was good to see her despite the circumstances. We rehashed the hearing and our relationship. Talked about our children, etc.

A couple of funny things, she commented on my hair and shoes. I was dressed to kill in my Italian suit.

Later we had some TM exchanges and the X mentioned that she should have asked me to take her to lunch. Here is the short exchange.

M: You wanted to have lunch with me? It must have been the hair. What can I say? I'm a good looking guy.

X: A bunch of smiles.

M: You are beautiful yourself. It was good to see you despite the circumstances. Have a safe flight.

X: Thank you(with a blushing sad face). I'm getting ready to board.

A few minutes later.

X: I must admit, you did look handsome today.

Before all this while meeting with the mediator, the mediator asked us if there was any chance for reconciliation. Before she could finish the question, my X said no.

Enough craziness for me in one day. I need to figure out what to do next.


Me:45 ExW:48
M:04/97
3 Bombs & 2 ReCons
1st BD 11/10
D Finalized 4/20
D-16 S-14
Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa