I know i'm breaking my promise to KD by writing on here, and i do want to take a break but ...
Something just came to me. About stress. And boundaries, and reactions and responses.
I'm kind of a fast-paced person. I'm like high-speed ahead. I can do a lot in a day. But does that really serve me? To do so much all the time? I mean, I need to work, and I need to cook and eat and keep a clean house and raise my kid - but.
I wonder if I can conserve energy more and slow down. To protect my energy and feel less stressed. To try to respond more simply (less analysis and computation)
I feel like I can do that if I were to slow down. But how would I slow down?
I pride myself on being an effective person who gets everything done on time and ahead of time. But it's clearly making me crazy. What if I just dropped stuff for a while? Like that feeling you have on vacation - you just edit out a bunch of crap.
I just feel like I'm responding to too much all at once - it's too much. And I think I feel like I *have to* keep responding to it.
Do I?
Like my family never calls to see how I am. They call b/c they want something from me - even if it's an invite, it feels like a demand.
