First "real" interaction!

[Lonely Room]

Hi there,

I'm starting to get hope again, and I don't want that to happen. It makes me feel good sometimes, but it also makes me feel bad when I start thinking about my wife and I getting together again, I start missing her, wanting to go back in time, etc.. I much prefer the stability I have achieved in the last couple of weeks, where not a lot of hope was present.

So, I need your help to organise my ideas and get on track again. I think I'll start with a little brainstorm:

How am I feeling now?
Sometimes I'm feeling happier than a few days ago because I have more hope in fixing our marriage. But other times it feel worse, because I think more about my wife, I miss her more, I regret about the past, I wish we were together, etc..

What changed?
We had a few "warmer" interactions last week. Then, she asked for my help to fix her computer, I helper her and we had a nice online chat where we both made each other laugh many times. I was very upbeat, jovial, sometimes probably a bit too "big headed". Later that evening she texted me asking for more help and I said that wasn't a problem and we could do it when we're both online again. She sent me a "thank you" and wished me a warm "sleep well".

What information did I obtain from the chat?
My wife mentioned she's proud and happy because I'm doing so well. She also mentioned that sometimes she feels really happy for being separated, but other times she feels sad when she thinks about our good memories. That she still finds it difficult to chat with me, and that she was afraid of asking my help because that might look like she's using me.

What else changed?
Nothing. Actually, even one week ago my wife commented with friends that when she's over our split she plans to date again, find someone else.

What might be happening?
She might be having doubts about our split. Or she might just be thinking that I'm moving forward and start approaching me as a friend. Or she might just be using me for her benefit.

What's the safest approach for me?
To assume that my wife just needed me to help her fix the computer and have no more hope than before. But I should be receptive to her communication attempts, without showing too much interest or being too rush in jumping into conclusions. Keep GAL'ing like I have, keep looking for new friends, keep taking care of my body and mind.

So, in my opinion the corner-stone here in having no more hope. But I am having more hope, and I don't know how to stop it because I just feel it. Do you guys have any good advice regarding that?

Thank you very much, regards.