My feelings are changing...sitch isn't

[tadpole1025]

Thanks everyone. Even though I don't start for a few weeks, it is nice to be part of the work force again.

I'm in the dumps again.

Damn it!

I just had the following text exchange with W. Still can't figure out why she hates me so frickin bad.

W: Did you total up your personal property?

M: Yes. I will send it to you tomorrow. Are you going to let me know your personal debts like I did for you with mine?

W: I will give it to you tomorrow after I check my student loan balance.

M: Ok.

W: I thought about all that we talked about yesterday and all that has happened since Sept. (FTR-I didn't know she was leaving until Oct.) Also all that has happened good and bad over the last 26 years. I will not be delaying the divorce. Sorry.

M: Ok. Thank you. Can I ask why you can't forgive me for whatever I did?

W: I told you a month ago that I forgive you. (Then what is the problem?) It is late. I am going to bed.

M: Can I call and talk to you really quick?

W: What about?

M: Our conversation yesterday.

W: I am really tired. I haven't felt good all day.

M: Ok. That's fine. Why don't you feel good?

W: Stress. This whole mess has affected my health in many ways. I need it over. I have practically bled to death over the stress. My stomach has been upset since we talked yesterday. I've had a headache since we talked yesterday. My hair falls out from stress. I can't sleep over it. I could go on. I skipped bootcamp today because I was just so tired.

M: I'm sorry. I do hope that you feel better soon.

W: Thanks. Good night.

M: Talk to you soon.

W: Okay.

She is done. Obviously, she is completely f*cking done and I can't do a damn thing about it.

Sure would like to know why she hates me.

Damn it.

Here I go again.....

Tad