Ok! A little journaling, just to try and clear my head.

What I know:
I need to have some sort of relationship with my H, for the sake of our son.
I cannot have anything beyond a business-like relationship with him while he is with OW - it is not good for my emotional health.
I need to work on GAL - every day, GAL is a choice.
I feel better when I eat right, get enough sleep, and exercise.
I need to focus on S7 and I - we are the place energy should go.
One way or another, this journey will reach a conclusion, and the only thing I can control is the person I am at the end.

What I don't know:
If his relationship with OW will end.
If he will want to come back if it does.
If I want to be with H in the long run.

What I can control:
Me. Myself. My actions. My reactions.

What I can't control:
Anything other than me.

Ok, there. That helps.


H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11