Ok! A little journaling, just to try and clear my head.
What I know: I need to have some sort of relationship with my H, for the sake of our son. I cannot have anything beyond a business-like relationship with him while he is with OW - it is not good for my emotional health. I need to work on GAL - every day, GAL is a choice. I feel better when I eat right, get enough sleep, and exercise. I need to focus on S7 and I - we are the place energy should go. One way or another, this journey will reach a conclusion, and the only thing I can control is the person I am at the end.
What I don't know: If his relationship with OW will end. If he will want to come back if it does. If I want to be with H in the long run.
What I can control: Me. Myself. My actions. My reactions.
What I can't control: Anything other than me.
Ok, there. That helps.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11