Feeling alone and frustrated with a 180.

[Psych77]

You guys are awesome! I really appreciate the encouragement I get from you, as (you are probably well aware of this) doing this is really hard. I am WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY out of practice taking care of myself and really even considering my own wants and needs. I am accustomed to being dependant, and focusing everything on what I should do for my family.

But, I guess you can't really love someone who is like that.

I will prove her wrong about me. But I understand what you are saying, that I have to make the changes because it is what I want to become, not because I want to prove something. That is the kind of change that will last, W will not believe it will last until she sees it last. That is where the "marathon" comes in.

And don't worry, I won't tell her about this board. I think I am finally getting the fact that I really need to have some place just for myself. I am glad you all are here.