Just had another... revelation about my W...

Something I knew but had "forgotten" and worth noting just for a frame of reference...

I mentioned in a thread in newcomers that M is a balance between giving and receiving... and that receiving is MUCH DIFFERENT than taking...

Receiving is being gracious and appreciative of the gift whereas taking generally comes from a place of expectations and a sense of deservedness...

My W had expressed a number of times over the past year how she DESERVED better... and she is very... blind... to all that I have provided for the family...

And reflecting on that, I see that this is quite normal in her behaviour while I've known her. Not just from me, but from others...

She appears to live a life from a position of entitlement... and that's sad... I wonder if she even knows what it's like to really receive a gift...

Not from a position of DESERVING... not from a position of NOT DESERVING... rather from a position of love and appreciation...

Anyhow, just wanted to journal that thought for future consideration... regardless of what the future brings...