First "real" interaction!

[Lonely Room]

Hi there!

My wife and I are separated for more than 7 weeks now, and during that time we only exchanged emails a few times about practical things. Two Fridays ago I texted her asking if she wanted to have a chat over Messenger or if she wanted to meet. She said yes to the Messenger chat, at some point, and said she wasn't comfortable with meeting yet.

Last Friday her younger sister told me that my wife is having some problems with her computer. I offered myself to help online, but I was about to leave work and could only do it later. They also had stuff to do, so, we left it that way.

Yesterday afternoon I was logged into Messenger after gym and noticed my wife logging in and changing her status to "available". She doesn't login for a couple of weeks now, and before that she was always with "busy" status. So, I contacted her.

I said hello, asked how she was, she said hello back, asked how I was. I said I was great, although my broken rib still hurts a bit. She asked what happened with my rib and I told her the funny story about it, she laughed!

She said she's proud that I'm doing so well after what happened between us and with my mum's cancer, I smiled and asked about how she has been doing. She said there are times when she's really happy and times when she's really sad because of memories. She mentioned she still finds it very difficult to talk to me.

I tried to change the conversation out of the relationship, asked her what was wrong with her computer, she explained and I started to fix it.

During the time I was remotely fixing her computer she mentioned that things between her father and her are still bad (they stopped talking because of our separation), I mentioned that I always kept out of the problems between them, but that they should approach each other and try to talk. She said she tried that but that he made some chat and turned his back on her. I wished that things get fixed between them.

I was also very upbeat, genuinely not made-up. I've been feeling good lately and have hope in the future with or without my wife. This is giving me safety to enjoy life. I made her laugh many times, then when I fixed the computer I told her I had to leave because I was having dinner with friends and seeing a film. She wished me a good evening and sent me many thanks and kisses, I replied them.

When I was watching the film with my friends she send me a text thanking me again and asking me for more help with the computer. I said that I don't mind to help and that we can do it next time we're both online. She sent me a thank you reply and wished that I sleep well!

I feel very happy with this interaction. We kept talking for almost 2 hours and there wasn't a single bad moment or quirk. Sometimes it even felt like in the beginning, when we met.

But I don't want to have any false hopes, because just recently I got clear indications that my wife is still convinced about us splitting and planning her future without me.

From my point of view, this interaction can mean two things:

- My wife was annoyed by the computer and really needed help, so, she approached me. She might think I'm moving on well and that a contact like this wouldn't do any harm.

- My wife is trying to approach me somehow to test the waters, because she's not 100% about leaving me.

What do you guys think? How do you think I should proceed from now on?

Thank you, regards.

PS - sorry for the long post.