Yesterday W and I discussed division of property. It was very amicable & she is taking less than half of the furniture, so I don't need to refinance the house to re-furnish it. Came around to discussing the Christmas items. I told her to take anything since I probably would not put a tree up this year. She gave me a "Why?" look, and I started to tear up; looked away so she couldn't see but it was pretty obvious. She came over, gave me a tight hug and we both lost it. Stood there hugging and weeping for what seemed like forever.
She seems to be more stressed about following through with her "plan" than I am.
We agreed to not pursue a divorce, and let the separation be nothing more than that. We also agreed to not pursue other relationships. Whether she ramps up her long-distance relationship with the OM or not is out of my control, but I think she is so emotionally drained that, like me, she is going to work on getting herself right. We even joked about dating each other again, which in my mind could be fun.
Since she told me she is moving out, we have been nicer to each other and more relaxed around each other than we have been since March. I've started to mentally change things in the house just to get some sense of control.
I am realizing that I will be better than OK with this.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
