written by Hallmark but chosen and given by my h a once wah who believed he never "had those feelings" and certainly wasn't in love with me.
" I know what they say-- that things sort of even out when you're married-- that you're not supposed to feel so-overwhelmingly "in-love" anymore.
We've been together for a while now, and I know things aren't always perfect.
But I want you to know that there are times when it hits me, and I'm just so sure about how much I love you... about how right we are together. And I don't think those moments will ever stop happening.
Merry Christmas
Love, H
I opened this card christmas eve I thanked h and said.
"if you wrote these words I would be crying right now, but the fact that you picked it out is making me smile!"
Hi LL..I keep forgetting your thread has a different title..howw are things..from the looks of the card..pretty good!! You have been on a very long ride of ups and downs..so many newcomers can benefit from your story
Hope you are able to get out in this awful weather..I think about you alot with two little kids..alllll day..been there..but it is all worth it.
I have been talking to Dotty..I was so hesitant to call anyone or give nuumbers out, but am so blessed I did..she said she has talked to you before...she is one strong lady..as are you.
Quote: Hope you are able to get out in this awful weather..I think about you alot with two little kids..alllll day..been there..but it is all worth it.
right now it's 36 degrees BELOW FREEZING!!!! can you say frostbite!!
well once again I find myself struggling with the was h's ea a pa?
I've accepted their "friendship" accepted that yes, he did spend time with her etc. But I find myself still struggling with the question of was it a pa as well? though I haven't asked the question in a while (no point in re-asking the same question again right?) the answer has always been a no.
Most often when I've expressed here my struggle with this question I am told to..
a. assume he has and move on
hard to do because he still claims not and part of me does believe him and I don't think it fair to him if I carry on not believing him.
b. believe him
ok most often I do but there is something in me that fights this belief. Not sure if it is ME that fights it or societies vision of things that I'm fighting. Or just my basic mistrust in general making it at times difficult to believe him.
I find that I don't carry any anger at h for the ea but when the thoughts of it being a pa I get angry. I have to wonder? at first I was angry at the ea but the more h told me about it the less angry I felt. Now if h were to "confess" about their being a pa I may be angry at first but would I then feel the same way about it as I do the ea?
where did this come from today?
last night I had a dream in wich I asked h to be completely honest with me. I asked him if he slept with ow. He smirked and then said yes. I then asked each time he went to the house? yes he replied. oooooh was I pissed!! we've never had it 3x a week other than when he first came home.
I suppose I'll never know the truth. Does that mean I will always struggle with this question?
