Life, the Universe and DBing

[LearningPatience]

Hey GAL, mean to respond to your thread, but it just hit me how utterly exhausted I am. To answer your questions:
1) temporary insanity
2) yes, I drove to Cleveland and back today (about 3 1/2 hours each way in another state). Great weather, but between that, not enough sleep and running twice yesterday (my race and also afterwards, again temporary insanity) I'm ready to go to bed and it isn't even 7pm!

I *think* my thought process was that since W was so angry, presumably due to my NC, but in hindsight she never mentioned why that I would open the door for her just a little. I don't want to say I regret the decision, but if I could do last week over I wouldn't have done it.

For the moment, my thought is that I don't want a D, but I'm not opposed to it. She really isn't a part of my life now, and she isn't showing any actions that would indicate she's willing to work on that.

I ran the race yesterday with a female friend that used to be pretty close to W. W used to be jealous of her, as I developed a crush on her around when everything started going to hell. I don't have a crush on her now, just a female friend. Anyhow, we had a great time and there are plenty of pics of us afterward just coated in mud and junk. Of course, they're online, but that's fine. Had both M and F friends say how good we looked (not in a together sense) so I think my working out is working. Friend told me that last year when they went on a trip (before the bomb) that W was super mad at me about something, but she never found out what. Friend told me who might know, but I thought to myself why rehash the past. Can't change anything so I don't think it's worth even pursuing.

OK, that last paragraph was a jumbled mess. Tired, yes siree! I'll post more once I'm coherent again.

Oh, one last thing... I think all my friends and family know I was car shopping *except* W. Guess I'll have to let her know sometime before the title gets mailed to the house