My feelings are changing...sitch isn't

[AJM]

Personally Tad, I think at this point the hardest thing for you to do is.. to be you. You are walled off and careful of everything you say. Understandable. But I have to say it seems that you are tearing yourself up with it. That's not healthy nor good for you. I know because I've been there and done that. I still do more than I care to admit.
It doesn't do you any good though. You know that and that tears you up as well.
She said and acts like she wants you gone. Be gone. You cannot help but you can slow her progress, Tad. You can also lose you in the process. My instinct tells me that being that cautious with your feelings and thoughts isn't you. I know why you are doing it, but I'm trying to tell you that it isn't going to help you. It's ok to say and do what you feel. Be real. Be honest.

When you decide you need to apologize for something, don't wait. Don't over think it. Do it. When you don't, don't. Keeping your cool and not getting angry is more to give you time to be rational, not to impress her. It doesn't. It likely confuses her just like everything else!

Bottom line is that what you do or don't do is not a "mistake" per se. Keep your cool and respond rationally, but don't hide your feelings either, my friend. Be you and be honestly you.

Good luck tomorrow!

AJ