You know, you're right - talking to OWH is bad for me, and it also shows I do have hope.
I hope she'll end it with my H, and I guess I hope if she does, there's a chance he'll want to work on things.
But I don't have any expectations. And I can't control it. So no more talking to OWH. Thanks for the wakeup call.
Can you elaborate on the "prepare" concept? I'm already working on GAL (plans with friends the nights I don't have S7, trying out for a local chorus, yoga, lots of reading - which sounds boring but I love and never had time for), I've gone fairly dark with H (topic for a journal post), and I'm getting my ducks in order for possible filing for D (parenting plan, etc).
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11