And the beat goes on...

[greenblue90]

She's looking for a savior. She sees the impending storm, and is reaching out to get help.

This is hard to say telemark, but she chose this. Now she has to live it. Don't take this the wrong way, but last time she did this she had you to save her and keep her afloat. She never truly hit rock bottom, she never stopped to think her actions had serious consequences. Stay strong.

Make sure you continue to GAL and stay positive. Everytime she looks back she needs to see you in the best light possible. It's your best hope for getting her back.

[jbnati]

So...how's West-by God-Virginia?

It was good. I'm home now. BTW, we DID go through PA one evening to get back to where were staying It's kind of funny - there were a couple of kids at the detention center that made it very clear they were from PA, not WV. Enough of that.

It seems now that she has to go through with her plan to move out she is realizing the reality of what that means. It is not going to be a picnic.

Good. She needs to realize this. It's not going to the utopia thought it was going to be, no?

Next weekend I will be out of town until Sunday night. When I get back, she will be gone. Don't know how I'm going to feel about returning to an empty house.

GAL as much as you can. You will probably be dreading coming back to an empty house. It'll probably be surreal. There may be some relief there, too.

You will now be able to concentrate on yourself. Make the most of it.

[Telemark]

Journaling...

Rough morning. I woke and immediately thought, "This is the last week W will be here." She has started packing her things, so there are half-full boxes everywhere. She has already left for work so I am wandering through the house looking at everything and wondering what I will be left with.

It's a big house, too big for just one person. But with the amount of repairs and renovations that still need to be done, and the housing market being what it is, I'm going to be here for at least another year, possibly two.

I've been staying busy during the evenings, so at least I am not here while she is in the process of moving. But I am filled with sadness that this is actually happening, yet I know we could not have continued living in the same house.

Furniture shopping this week; blah. I just don't feel like dealing with that.

[~¤DG¤~]

Good morning Telemark.

I'm sorry your hurting this morning.
When my H first left I had a very hard time being here alone.
I would stay out as late as I could when my kids were with their Dad.
I'd visit friends, hang out at the library, etc.
I will get easier with time.

Time.

I really hate that word right about now.

[jbnati]

Hang in there Telemark. It hard to overlook the boxes.

Take care of yourself.

You have the opportunity to make the place your own now. Try to enjoy the furniture shopping from that perspective.

I am keeping you in my prayers.

[Telemark]

gb90, you are spot on. When W walked out of her first marriage, I was right there with lots of warm fuzzies and support. Plus she had a lot of enabling friends and family pushing her to leave; this time, not so much.

jb, you are right; I am dreading the return next Sunday. Already the house looks totally unfamiliar.

dg, thanks for your good wishes. I do have a lot of friends who will make sure I don't spend much time alone.

[Telemark]

"I am keeping you in my prayers."

Thanks, brother.

[Telemark]

W has started moving her things out. Each time I come home I see something else gone; family pictures, small items, books...it's like watching someone slowly die, I think.

This week is going to be sheer hell.

[~ kd ~]

Are you making sure that you are keeping some of the "family" memorabilia like group/family pictures, etc...? scan some to keep if there's no duplicates...

[a girl]

Tele - I had that same reaction at first. It does get easier, though. ((hugs))