As I mentioned in my previous post, I fully understand you.
Venting on the boards can be useful for the first few months or even years, but there comes a time when all you seem to do is to perpetuate your negative feelings instead of just venting them.
It's very much akin to going to C to drag out the past.
It may sound hipocritical of me to say so, since I still lurk a little and post a little, but there's such a thing as too much.
I know you're going to do fine, LL. Perhaps you just need a break from looking so closely at your R so much of the time.
Maybe, like me, you'll let up some (I even left the BB completely for fairly long stretches), and come back to touch bases with your friends from time to time.
Or, if you want, you can do what some other DBers do, and stick to the light hearted stuff like the "just for fun" forum.
In any case, you really sound like you need a break, and I hope you'll find a way to just kick of your heels and be yourself.
