I am at a point in my sitch where I need to let things rest and just be...
I must let my W go for now... it is what she wants... it is what she needs
I will do this for her... Because I love her
I need to stop having contact with my W in order to do this...
I will do this for me, my W, and my M...
I want a new, better M through FREE WILL...
I do not want my W to return to me because of pressure, manipulation, or any other reason other than she CHOOSES to return because she wants to be with me...
I will use this time to try to learn more about myself...
Who I am...
My character... vs. my personality...
I will use this time to look at what I want for my life...
If having my W is even what I truly want ...
What traits do I want in the person who I am with...
Does my W still fit that profile? Did she ever?
Am I still fighting just to win... or because I am afraid to cut my losses...
I need to figure these things out in my head and in my heart...
I will continue to hope that we can reconcile in the future...
I will let things rest...
I will just be...
For now...
Today is not the day that I give up. Tomorrow may be different, but today is not the day that I give up.
Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
