You sound so much better. I'm sure it shows in your attitude at home & work.
I hope you will continue to stick around. You could be helpful to others and it might be a tool to "remind" you not to fall into old habits.
The one thing that seems to be the main problem for "returning" DBers, is that they fell back into their old ways. Don't let yourself be added to that list.
(hugs)
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!