I apologize for any disrespect inferred from any of my posts, as I did not mean to take anything away from the valiant struggle that all are going through whether they stand or not. When I spoke of negativity I was referring to those who choose to be bitter and end up poisoning the newbies to give up and that their situation is hopeless, certainly not those who wish to give advice to help make anyone's road easier. All respect to those who pay it forward and try to help those of us who are just beginning this journey. I don't know where or if I will find the strength to make it as it begun when I was already greatly weakened.

Again, thank you to all who are contributing and helping me on this. My goal is to be able to carry this forward and help others as I am being helped. It's funny that after so many years of school to learn to help others, I am in the greatest need of my life. I truly feel like I am living in Hell on Earth.


M 39
W 41
Married 18 years
Together 21
D18 D10
S6
D filed May 16, 2011
Bomb Dropped May 18, 2011
D in process