Waiting to PIECE. No PEACE when waiting

[ninelives]

hey guys, sorry havent posted for awhile. just having trouble organizing yhoughts and just plain not sure whats going on in concrete terms. like im the only one on this board to feel like that. Also sorry not offering any advice to others in need. I plan to rectify that soon>

Dont know where to start for updates cause alot has happened but nothing concrete.

went to her place the night b4 memorial which was july 24. So i was there on the 23. Prior to going over, there was a family gathering at her sister's house. Those that know my recent history with her sis know shes not on my christmas list but she has been uber nice to me since my w was beat up.

I did not show at her sisters despite her wanting me there. I went for a ride on my bike. I dropped by her plaace after and it was really hot out. She invited me in and i had the music with me. We listened to the selections I made for her mom's memorial. She then did something really strange. She got up, went to the bathroom, came back with just her panties on. Sat beside me on the couch and then put her legs on my lap. We listened to the music ande then i massaged her legs and feet for the next hour and a half. she liked my selections. i even throuh on our wedding song because it was appropriate for the occasiom, rod stewert have i told u lately that i love u.

anyway, she kicked me out at 11ish, i went home and had a cold shower. just kidding. when i got home there was a message on my machine from her. She was pleading for me to go to her sisters because it was a family gathering and that i was her family.

next day i went to her place to pick up garbage for the dump, i went in and again she just had her panties on, i made a comment about that she should put some clothes on and she said it was so hot. So I got all the kids clothes ready for the memorial, she commented that she was happy that i took care of their clothes, got the pants hemmed downtown, music etc,

she askrd me to pick her up as she wanted us to go as a family. She also said she wanted me to stay close by her.

i am down south visiting my ailing parents right now and will report more later,

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